She once loved wholeheartedly and then the love disappeared when the virus attacked him over a decade ago.

She is perceived as a warm, friendly, compassionate, creative, and emotionally strong woman, but her aching heart is quickly dying while all the veins and arteries that surround the delicate organ are rapidly trying to save her. They build a fortress around her heart for her protection. She is much more than the typical woman many visually behold. The guarded woman keeps her heart partially restrained. To set it fully free will make the pain of the possibility of lost love too unbearable to experience again. This woman is sensual and capable of loving deeply but hides behind her many masks.  Inside her is a fortress which inhabits sadness, fear, nervousness, and loneliness.  She is such a great illusionist that those who think they know her are blinded by her illusion. Her illusion makes her feel safe, but she is afraid one day someone will see through it and all her masks making her feel naked and vulnerable.

If that day ever comes, she will fight hard to protect everything she has created; however, she might learn to cautiously let go and allow herself to love again.

~A. Mac