There have been many cracks, roadblocks, and sudden curves on my path since the start of the new year. The majority of these unexpected obstacles have affected me professionally, psychologically, and maritally. I look down the path i came from and find I’m at a crossroads.  Which path do I take? Professionally, I am considering opening a private practice or an Alternative and Augmentative Communication clinic, pursuing a clinical doctorate, or becoming an Autism Consultant.  Psychologically, I am trying to heal from my time in the hospital and process many therapies. Lastly, there is the marriage and relationship problem. Which is the most important path?  For the first time since my work  “incident”, I no longer feel guilty, ashamed, or afraid of whatever people may think of me. I can actually see myself doing something other that speech and language therapy.  As for my marriage, I have no clue. I know  TMIM cares for me and wants us to be happy. I’m in love with another, and although I do care for TMIM, the love, passion, and excitement no longer exists. I’m too vulnerable right now to choose the relationship battle and too emotionally vulnerable to heal from any battle right now. It seems like I need to stay on my professional path to find another job I love; however, I must battle my professional demons alone. Neither path will be a piece if cake and I may break a few toes or two. I am a survivor and a warrior. I can do this.

A. Mak.