When you live in a small town, you can’t help but to run into people you know, especially former coworkers.  I don’t know why I am always surprised seeing their reaction when they see me for the first time. Running into someone typically goes like this: “Andi!” We hug each other and say hello. “You look so good!” “Thank you. I feel good!” “This is the happiest I’ve seen you in a long time!” After that we catch up and part ways. Each time this happens, I am always reminded how much I’ve had to deal with and overcome within the last 8 months. My stubbornness has frustrated many; however, my warrior spirit and compulsion to speak up for myself & others balances the stubbornness (at least according to a friend of mine).  My playful, mischievous, and sassy self is back.  It is a part of me that went on an extended vacation that lasted a few years. There are some individuals I’ve interacted with who would prefer that side of me would go back on vacation. Apparently, those qualities are sometimes perceived as “trouble”, especially by those who want to control you. I welcome these qualities because it is a frequent reminder of the fun and adventurous side of life.

After observing this pattern of greeting from friends and coworkers, I can’t help but to wonder how a person’s mood affects how others perceive you. When I worked in the public schools, I rarely was in a bad mood but highly stressed and hyperfocused on completing job-related tasks such as report writing, billing, or providing therapy.  If you walk around with a serious look on your face, people assume you are unhappy. I guess, in my case, those assumptions were pretty accurate. There is something to be said about smiling and laughing several times throughout the day. It definitely changes how you feel inside as well as how others perceive your mood.

These days, there are so many reasons to smile and laugh again. I hope I never forget this feeling. It truly makes a difference how you view and live life.

~A. Mac