“I’ve never had a broken heart.” He looks at her with shock and surprise as he replies, “Really? Everyone has experienced a broken heart at least one time in their life.” “I haven’t. I’ve always been the heart breaker.” “You must have been one hell of a heart breaker.” She chuckled and replied, “I don’t know about that. I’ve never allowed myself to fully love someone.”
The couple become inseparable. He reads her like a book and loves her spirit, intellect, and thoughtful heart; she calms him and loves his gentleness, assertiveness, and brilliance. They marry and become one.
One day, they both blinked and their world changed forever. A virus attacks his neurological system and his mind and body will never be the same. She stands by his side while nurturing and encouraging him to get better. She is strong and refuses to cry while patiently hoping and waiting for him to come back to her. He doesn’t. A part of her dies.
He regains his ability to walk but cannot control his irritability. He tells his bride to leave so she can have another chance for love and happiness. She refuses because she loves him and promises to never leave his side.
Years go by and she yearns for physical and intellectual intimacy, but she doesn’t stray. She hides behind her invisible wall secretly wanting to be alive again. One day, she reaches out to him in anticipation of finding the love that was lost. He physically and emotionally pushes her away while telling her he is no longer attracted to her, isn’t a good wife, and does not do anything around the house. For the first time, his words pierce her heart. The pain becomes unbearable and her heart is crushed. Her eyes are reluctantly opened as she realizes the man she fell in love with no longer existed. His neurological damage is beyond repair, and for the first time, she realizes she deserves to enjoy life to its fullest extent.
She must make a choice. Stay by his side and let him rip her heart and feel the pain of lost love, leave him to live her own life and find happiness but look like the selfish bitch who left a husband with a disability, or stay and help her husband at home while living life and meeting new people to eventually find happiness. Whatever her choice she makes, she will still need to deal with her aching heart, lack of love, and need for intimacy. She should be wanted and desired by many who love her mind, wit, and sensuality.
~A. Mac
Stumbling Down the Path 
Lisa Newman and oneanna65, I am glad you liked this post. It came from my heart and is a true story. 🙂 I hope you continue to read Stumbling Down the Path.
~A. Mac
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I am so sorry you have had to go through this. I Feel for you. For Completely different reasons I am where you are with my husband. Mine had a choice to hurt me with his words, yours didn’t. I stayed for the sake of our children. They are all grown up now, in the meantime I guess I just got used to the status quo, and now I am just too afraid to leave. I would be really happy for fate or destiny to intervene now. Given your situation, I think I would be welcoming a valid reason for ending it now my kids are grown up and I have found a Dom I want to spend the rest of my life with. I would very much like to read the rest of your journey, and look forward to more Stumbling Down the Path.
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I’m glad you could relate to my story. I can’t leave a husband with a physical and neurological disability but have taken action to find happiness again. I hope you can work up the courage to leave your husband and that you may find support from your children who probably didn’t like seeing how their mother was treated. Good luck to you. Know that you are safe to comment and speak freely here and that you are not alone.
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